cal is finally blogging.. hais. so many things happening.. im kinda suffocated by all thats going on.. assingments.. irritating tutors.. talent time.. and the thing thats got me burdened the most is my family.. mummy just got into a car accident.. but thank God that she's alrite.. no major injuries even though the car's hurt pretty bad.. then daddy's been working as a car salesman for the past month and yet.. no sales.. there were 3 times when buyers almost bought cars from him.. but they all changed their minds in the end.. he's feeling kinda discouraged about this.. cuz this means, his pay is only $250.. thats the basic pay.. to earn more, its based on comission from car sales.. and as for my bro.. i dunno wad happened between us.. we just stopped talking.. and heard frm mummy that he wants to quit school.. hais. spiritual warfare indeed.. i tink i'm tired.. its so easy for me to break down these days.. but thank God for darlings like meng, represent crew, tess, xian and of cuz khye.. they're the ones who are there for me.. to encourage me.. to give me hugs :) thanx guys.. really appreciate it..

i gotta learn to be strong.. to not get affected by what people think or say.. instead, use it to push myself.. to be better.. i know i have it in me.. but i just need to find that confidence and to really step out.. Dance Cal! stop doing steps.. dance it out! feel the music.. put your heart and soul into it.. don't have to be ashamed of anything or anyone.. just go out there.. dance and enjoy urself!

i felt God say to me.. "I'm with you in this.. from the beginning til the end.. I'm your biggest fan.. I believe in you.. I'll be watching you dance.. I'll be here, supporting you.. rooting for you.. so just go out and show the world what you've got!" wow~ God is just so wonderful.. my pillar of strength.. and i don't wanna let Him down.. I'm gonna do my best.. put in double the effort.. i wanna make Him proud =D

- One life, I lay at Your altar -