.Saturday, May 5, 2007 ' 3:34 AM Y
woot! .. here to blog again !!..
Finally can have a good rest after 5 DAYS of working at o cafe..
its was kinda tiring .. but at least its a much better job compared to outside and i kinda enjoyed working there..
well times were tough for the past one week..
lotsa anticipating , waiting , dissapointment , arguements , tears..
sometimes i just let my burdenS get over me .. putting up attitude , "asshole faces" for everyone to see..but hey i dont wanna it to happen , to show either..but sometimes things just get so frustrated in my life..a few days ago i got so fed up with life , just cant seem to do things right .. when i put in an effort to do something it turns out well i nvr get praise , when i did something bad or made a mistake everyone just come looking after me ...how i wish life was much more simpler to live.. right now .. i guess i am use to it .. dont wanna live on ppls opinion abt mi anymore.. just try my best to accomplish what is passed to me..
i had a new revelation on dance..
i feel ur character plays an important part in the way u dance in the way u express yourself..
and i feel the character i had with me for the past 18 years is really affectting my dance , hindering my breakthrough.. i need to step out of this circle .. its time
.. god.. please guide and help me..
There is just a number of people that i cant stand..
god , i am praying for a greater tolerance towards them..
i guess for the past 4 months
we been putting too much focus on the relationship and we lost our focus on god..
thank god that the fear of u came just in time .. and right now we are back on path..
its time to place the relationship on the altar..
right now its not gonna be just us .. its abt us and u ..
spiritual life right now is going to be our piority..
and nothing shall compromise that..
we dont wish to get approve in such a way..
therefore we are waiting patiently for the day to come..
yes some of u my dear friends are worried about us ..
but the only thing we can assure u guys is ..
we are not going to focus too much on this relationship..
we are going to build up our spiritual life..so as to be able to stand strong whenever the devil tries to throw something at us..
yes, this wait is not going to be easy..
but let us just dont look at what is gonna happen in the future..
yes of course we are working towards marriage..
but right now we must be focus on the small lil steps we are making..
just to make sure we did not make the wrong step..
spiritual life is utmost important..
a relationship shld nvr be a burden but shld be iron sharpening iron..
we are look forward to moulding a better character through this relationship set by god..
and i believe .. putting the focus on god and not the relationship..one day..
it will be approved.. god .. we are waiting and at the same time working towards it ..
we are no more rushing , forcing things to happen..
but to wait patiently for the day to come =)
there is something in me that i need to change
in the future u guys are going to see a smiling khye =)..
so dont feel weird k?.
i look quite cute when i smile =x
its looks much better compared to my fierce face..
