.Friday, April 20, 2007 ' 1:38 PM Y
well, we had our 2nd talk with kenny..
accounted to him of the things that happened for the past few months..
he's truly a man of wisdom..
he listened and gave good advices..
i know that its a lil ridiculous for u guys to hear us say that we are working towards marriage..
especially at our age.. when we're barely even 20..
i guess that kenny did feel that way.. and he gave us a word of wisdom: "If things don't work out.. Don't force it.."
we totally understand where he's coming from..
and also, kenny said that if we wanted our relationship to be official..
wait another 2 months.. wait til we return to our own cellgroups..
also, while we were talking on some stuff..
he pointed out that if the relationship isn't going in the right direction.. we'll be able to see it within the next 4 months..
so khye and i are gonna work on this..
we'll give it another 2-4months..
and if things don't work out.. then, we'll go back to being friends..
it was a tough decision for us..
but as kenny said.. don't force it..
mmm.. we're not gonna leave things as it is though..
as in.. just sit around and live life.. wait til the 4 months are up..
nope..
well, its only natural that problems arise in relationships..
and for us.. it deals mainly with our weaknesses..
his negativity.. my pride (which often leads to moodswings)..
such problems can be a real hazard to relationships..
mmm.. a few nights ago.. we were talking on the fone..
and for some reasons.. we'd end up being unhappy with one another..
i didnt like it..
so we sort of talked things out and realised.. the cause of it all is still the negativeness and the moodswings..
mmm.. i'm 110% certain that by our own strength and capabilities.. we'll never make this relationship work..
it'll definitely be the end of us by the next 4 months..
so we're gonna continue with our prayer conferences and fastings..
we're gonna lean on God..
praying that He'll see us through..
that He'll help us stregthen our weaknesses..
p/s: one of those nights when khye and i had an argument.. i kinda forgot wad was it about actually.. but i remebered that i was giving him attitude.. and he got alil unhappy as well.. somehow.. a part of me hated myself for how i was treating khye that nite.. but another part of me, my pride, felt that its ok to do so.. my mind thought "after all.. he's the guy.. let him 'hong' you.." my emotions was all over the place.. i soo badly wanted to apologise to khye but yet my pride said no.. being frustrated, i sought after God.. i knew that i had a problem.. but i didnt know what it was.. i mean, sometimes people tend to overlook their own flaws & weaknesses.. it is only when others tell you about it then u realise.. O ya hor~ so i cried out to God.. asking Him to tell me what's wrong with me.. why am i acting this way.. and He gave me a word..
Ephesians 4:2-3
Always be humble and gentle. Be patient with each other, making allowance for each other's faults because of your love. Make every effort to keep yourselves united in the Spirit, binding yourselves together with peace.
whoa~ the 1st line itself just hit me.. be humble and gentle.. mmm.. if God wants me to be humble.. it must be pride then.. and if God wants me to be gentle.. it must be my attitude and temper then.. at that very moment.. i felt so relieved.. and just continued crying.. God is simply awesome.. the way He speaks and comforts one.. its just amazing :)) so after my qt.. i sms-ed khye the verse.. and he felt that its a great 1 too.. so we've decided to make room for each others flaws.. giving one another time to work on it.. not only that.. we'll continually pray and fast.. yes, just like how the Teriyaki boys would sing.. "Fast & Prayer~~"
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To Babymmm.. remember how u keep asking me if u're leading this relationship the right way? well, honestly speaking.. i think that u're doing one heck of a great job! ;)) i know that there are times when things dont turn out so well.. but then again, u're not perfect.. and i'm not perfect.. only Jesus is.. so lets walk hand in hand with Him ok? He'll help and lead us through.. i believe in you baby.. and i always will.. and i know that u are doing the best u can for the both of us.. so don't feel discouraged k? even when people doubt u or ur capabilities.. always remember that God and i are here for u.. and we believe in u with all our hearts! its ok if people don't see how much u're trying.. as long as God sees it.. it's all worth it!
i love you, khye loh yong chye! :))
