it's lovee;

.Friday, April 20, 2007 ' 12:31 AM Y

khye's back to blog again!! =)
I REPEAT THIS IS NOT A EMO POST .. I REPEAT THIS IS NOT A EMO POST!!

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walking back to east coast, my mind was wondering .. man have i said the wrong words again?

I sat on one of the bench facing the big sea... some how the wind got stronger and i simply enjoy the breeze..

i stare at the sea for a moment , and started to reflect on myself..

am i leading the relationship the right way?
am i fufilling my promises?
are we really working towards our purpose?
am i a helper or a burden in her life?..

i took some time to glance through the past 3 mths and i saw many unhappiness that was caused by me , by my negativeness , by my short temper by my rashness and by my impatience..

the past few nights before we went east coast , we had some dispute and its all cause by me having to think too much having not able to control my emotions..

i was so afraid that history will repeat itself , what happen to mi and geraldine ..
i was so afraid that she will lose faith in me..
i was so afriad that she feels this relationship is not working out ..

i panicked..

i regretted loads of things that i done towards this relationship..

i close my eyes..i need to stop .. i need to stop being negative .. i need to stop it from allowing it to control me .. i REALLY NEED TOO!!

that night
i made a pact with god..
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Talk with kenny

It was a good talk ..
he pinpointed my weakness..
i was deeply convicted..

Its was as if god telling me.. khye what have you been doing?
this relationship need to be set back on the right track immediately....
God i ask for your trust again..
this time round ..
we will stay on track and nvr stray..

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To baby

For the past few weeks my life is kinda shakey..
there were many times where i couldnt take it .. but you were there helping me comforting me encouraging me..
you had been such a strong spiritual helper in this relationship..
baby .. i am sorry that i lack the capablilities to make this relationship be approve..
sorry that i am unable to convince kenny
sorry that you need to go through dissapointment once again..

Give me another chance..
i will make this relationship work ..
This time around its not going to be big talking , big plannings..
its all about recognising all the small little details of this relationship..
bridging each and every differences..
STRENGTHENING our weaknesses

i love you ..
thank you for all the sacrifices you made for this relationship..
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ps. i seriously think that i need to improve on my english LOL

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